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Jun. 15th, 2006 | 09:06 am

A light earthquake occurred at 5:24:51 AM (PDT) on Thursday, June 15, 2006.
The magnitude 4.7 event occurred 10 km (6 miles) E of San Martin, CA.
The hypocentral depth is 3 km ( 2 miles).

crazy. my first one.

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reviving an old entry

Jun. 2nd, 2006 | 09:20 pm

i remember watching my mom put a different kind of candy in her purse for my dad every sunday. for variety. because she always liked to give him something new.

i remember watching my dad fry eggs and toast and serving it with her special tea. it was a weeknight and she wasn't sick. her sick food when she wasn't sick. gifts when she didn't ask.



i don't remember ever really hearing my parents expressing their love for each other.
but i always knew it. the love.


the romance will never die with them.
i hope one day i can have that too.


******



the benefit of growing up with both parents, besides the obvious, is that in those moments you really begin to understand what it takes to sustain love.

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trying to update

Jun. 2nd, 2006 | 08:47 pm

spent the whole day "working from home."
translation: got home at 3am the night before & checked my inbox, like, every 2 hours for client requests for blah blah blah...
(i really do love my job, don't misunderstand, i just don't like people very much =P)


it's been exactly one year today since i first set foot in my little studio on the SF peninsula. so hard to imagine that my 24th year is almost gone. hazy pictures of all day smoke sessions w/ jared & company; beautiful nights in the city eating, drinking, actually preferring to only smoke outdoors; drives along the coast (and elsewhere), over & through the bridges, on the inevitable hunt for that perfect carnitas super burrito (which we have found, by the way); getting lost in the mountainy landscapes and even moreso in the thickening fog; the new friends, new laughs, newly developed candor like "hella [insert noun here]"; and most of all, what i came here for, a renewed life with jared.

can't emphasize it enough.
it's crazy where life takes you when you're not watching.

more updates tbd. :D

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(tiny) revelation

May. 29th, 2006 | 11:30 am

i am your mirror. any attitude you reflect outward, you will see in me. i soak up your personality like a sponge. so you want me to treat you a certain way, then you need not search any further than to correct your own behavior. understood?

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Sep. 9th, 2005 | 10:43 am
mood: tiredtired

i wrote this a few months before i moved...february 14, 2005.
i dont know why the need to repost an originally private journal entry. maybe i'm just reaching for something here. anything, i guess. i don't know.

today i spent v-day with our memories. i read through all the different cards you gave me. i tossed some and i kept most. i felt like there were still some things in our past that i'd like to remember.

i'm scared to move. i'm scared that you won't want me anymore. i'm scared that you don't want me now. i don't want to make the biggest mistake of my life by being near you.

you tell me things all the time but words can only really go so far. its always been hard for me to feel more important than anything in your life and my biggest fear is that i never will.

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ooooolllldddd

Jul. 2nd, 2005 | 06:21 pm
mood: relaxedrelaxed

it just occurred to me that in about 1 month i will be 24!
i know its crazy to feel old at 24 but, damn, i don't wanna be in my MID-twenties!



so i'm a permanant resident of norcal for 3 weeks now. will update once i get myself together :D

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quirks

May. 15th, 2005 | 12:51 pm
mood: awake
music: do you wanna ride, lil suzy

i get highly irritated by people who refer to their "apartment" as a "flat" when said person is so obviously NOT from britian or europe or any other place that would normally call it a "flat."

in america, its just a fuckin APARTMENT!

yeah, okay, i don't know why that irks me so much.

on a lighter note...
gonna be in dc next weekend! anyone down to kick it, please don't hesitate to call :D

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summer 2005

May. 2nd, 2005 | 11:59 am

i don't know how my life became so pre-determined. =P

[ may 20 - 22 ]
washington d.c.
going-away reunion =P

[ june 1 ]
burlingame, ca
westcoast relocation

[ july 8 - 9 ]
las vegas
j & p's wedding

[ late july ? ]
san francisco
jared's best friends wedding

[ august 20 ]
la jolla
ate's wedding








i miss summer in the 1980's.

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mediocre update

Mar. 30th, 2005 | 10:57 pm
mood: sleepysleepy
music: good to be in love, frou frou

lifes been crazy busy! so much shit to get done in the next 3 months.
and magically gonna do it all with the last $100 left in the ol' savings account!
or not.
actually, i've been whoring myself out to online companies as of late. hopefully, the first check will come in time for my cell bill. hopefully. oh well, whatever. i'm in so deep financially, i've stopped trippin off anything in exchange for this strange nonchalant kinda denial. yeah, retarded, i know. but hey, a girl cant be stressin all the time.

the "big move" is coming closer and closer and i couldn't be more freakin excited! apartment huntings become my new found obsession! i dunno what i'm gonna do when i actually do find a place. i guess, obsess over furniture?

anyway, found that every good place on the market is "conveniently located near a starbucks." because, ya know, thats what i look for in a place - its vicinity to expensive coffee. ideally i'll be living in the burlingame/san mateo area for 1) the better weather, and 2) its closeness to jared. theres actually some cheap ass vacancies in his building, but i don't think i'm ready for that kinda closeness.

i've pushed the move date to mid june. june 15th, pending. need to spend some quality time with the parents. i never realized how much i might miss them...and my bratty dog. i've never been so far away from family before. it'll be an interesting transition. and a good one, i hope.

really, after all this, i'm just looking forward to a good long summer of happy bummyness. lots of relaxation, intoxication, and fun. yeah, something like that. :D







hi, lj friends! sorry i've been so mia.

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i'm learning, i hope

Feb. 13th, 2005 | 11:04 pm
mood: calmcalm
music: wouldn't it be nice, the beach boys

my parents went to a dinner thing on friday. sort of a pre-valentines celebration given by our church. i would've gone, but i didn't want to. even in my happiest moments i've always had some kind of resentment for valentine's day, like an ex-boyfriend who doesn't know how to leave you alone. i know, i know, it's a really unproductive way to look at things. if my mom, a woman married to the most unromantic man in the world, can still be optimistic about love, i shouldn't be sulking in any form of misery over this one day.

and i won't anymore.

i drove to the cheesecake factory for some slices of white chocolate rasberry and i realized that all this time i've been taking things in in all the wrong ways. inside, i really love all holidays. i enjoy seeing people in love, i enjoy being in love, and i love celebrations. i've been depending on other people to make my holidays special when i should've been content in my own happiness. i guess you can never be too old to learn anything.

so tomorrow, i will be happy simply because i like what tomorrow is all about. anything from anyone that i get on top of that will just be a pleasant and welcoming addition. it's a resolution thats a couple years overdue, but i'm learning that life isn't as complicated as i make it out to be.

happy valentine's day, everyone!

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